Another Breakthrough?
Published on Mar 5th, 2008 in Sugar Addiction with
Well here’s an interesting bit of news.
I ate a piece of cake at work. …OK, that wasn’t the interesting bit of news, but keep reading! I’m ‘painting the picture.’ Well, this piece of yellow cake was fluffy and moist with thick, chocolate frosting. My favorite combination in a cake! I had a couple of bites but discovered I really didn’t want it. It didn’t do anything for me. It’s not that the cake tasted bad; it was pretty good. I just wasn’t craving it. It didn’t turn me on.
Yet, I kept eating it! You’d think I’d be excited about not wanting to eat cake, throw down my fork, and triumphantly walk my plate of the remaining, uneaten confection to the trash can. But nooooo! Instead, my mindset was along the lines of: “You’re supposed to love this stuff and gobble it up! Sweets are your favorite food; you’re supposed to want this! Eat it!” So I ate it. I wrote in my journal that I was “not hungry but ate it because ‘it was there’; because I felt like I had to.”
Interesting… very interesting.
I think I will call this a breakthrough. One: I actually didn’t want to eat a favorite food of all time - yellow cake with chocolate frosting! And second: I learned something new about my eating behaviors… I’m ‘brainwashed’ into thinking I should love, want, and eat sweets!
Looks like I have some work to do with my mental outlook - get my brain out of the wash and refocus it.
That is very interesting! I thought you were going to say you kept eating it to be polite. That’s what I’d do and then be annoyed at myself. I am impressed you are keeping a journal. I need to do that - for a lot of things in my life.
Emily,
Eating it to be polite could certainly be argued as reasonable. However, my reasons were anything but!
Keeping a journal is definitely worth the time and effort. I’m not perfect, but I have still been able to realize things about myself that I might not have otherwise.
Congratulations on your breakthrough.
I doubt I could ever turn down a dessert containing chocolate unless I was deathly ill!
I never met a chocolate I didn’t like.
There’s someone who makes bundt cakes at the library. I’ve learned not to eat them because I don’t actually like them…but it took me a while to realize that. Sounds like you’re making progress.
Jules,
Even the bland, generic, cheap store-bought kind?!
Go for quality, Jules! Go for quality!
Good for you, Mrs. Micah!
I’m in that learning stage right now, but hopefully one day I can say to any kind of cake, “I don’t need or want you anymore!” That’s one relationship I’d be very happy to end!